God's Eyes Chapter 25 - Accepting Reality

He was shocked about his own calmness and bloodthirstiness as it felt amazing to have the power about life and death.
But only a second later Jason was frightened as he shuddered violently before vomiting his breakfast and other stomach fluids.
His legs gave in and he looked shocked at the horned zebra corpses while his hands trembled.
The hand around the dagger loosened up and it took him quite some time until he regained his senses.
Jason heard some noises a little bit away from him which helped him distract himself before he saw that a two-star wild beast fanged coyote fought another two-star wild beast scaled wolf for a horned zebra corpse some distance away.
He noticed that this was probably the corpse of the third horned zebra and Jason slowly began to understand that outside the dome the strong ruled while the weak can only hide in misery.
Being at the bottom of the food chain, the horned zebras were considered prey of all carnivore beasts, while five star wild beasts were the strongest in this wild zone with the exception of humans.
Before, Jason was also seen as a nuisance and useless because he was blind, even if his theoretical results were more than excellent.
Everybody knew that knowledge was important but what is the use of it when you can't survive against the weakest beast during beast tides or other accidents.
Relying on others? Don't kid yourself.
There are only a few humans who care about strangers and even fewer with enough strength to help them.
Jason started thinking and a sudden thought appeared in his head
`The rules of the jungle don′t solely apply outside the dome.`
Jason noticed that the whole society including the government and federation system was built according to one's strength.
The stronger one was, the higher was his or her position.
Excluding the fact that some strong humans didn't have and leading or managing abilities which made them useless as executives, humanity was still relatively well off, compared to 300 years ago
Sometimes powerhouses understood their shortcomings, turning them to step back for more knowledgeable authorities but that wasn't always the case and it was still unknown how safe laws were if one was weak.
It was the same with his mother's death.
He received some credits but Jason doubted that the mysterious heir was punished for killing innocent humans.
Jason understood one thing for sure.
If he wanted to live his life without getting forced to do something he didn't want to, Jason had to get stronger--fast.
Without relying on somebody else that could throw him away any moment, Jason's mindset changed slowly.
Greg was a friend to Jason but he had to understand that he couldn't believe everyone naively.
If Greg was a bad person, he could use Jason as a marionette or even worse without receiving any punishment, as long as Greg′s family was powerful enough.
Suppressing his disgust he stored the horned zebra corpse before looking at the fighting two-star wild beasts.
Both were injured and it looked like they were evenly matched.
Jason went closer as the scaled wolf ducked under the coyote's claw in order to bite into its abdomen while using its claws to rip the flesh apart.
He saw this and began to rush towards the two which were a few dozen meters apart.
His speed was slower than before because he didn't use any mana to reinforce his lower body as he had used up a lot of it previously.
There was only a little mana in his core left to make a quick stride.
The coyote which was now heavily injured gripped the wolf with its front legs to bite in its shoulder while it used its hind legs to slash at the wolf's lower body.
Both were now heavily injured as the coyote that layed on the ground noticed a human behind the wolf.
It shrieked out in fear but unfortunately was already too late and the wolf's neck was already pierced by the bloodied dagger.
But the dagger didn't stop there, as the wolf's neck was only an obstacle required to reach the coyote.
Jason could see the beast's fear which caused him to almost hesitate before the dagger penetrated the coyote's chest.
Both beasts died without much pain and Jason vomited some gastric fluids before he gathered himself.
He felt still disgusted to kill a living being but the second time was much easier than the first time.
It took him only a few seconds to regain his senses before he picked up the two two-star beast carcasses and the third horned zebra corpse which laid only a few meters away from the small battlefield as he looked out for a Tree which he climbed up.
Not many beasts were able to climb up trees in this one-star wild stone except a few four and five-star wild beasts in the core areas.
Jason was at the outskirts of the wild zone and extremely close to the dome but the dense mana he felt was perfectly fit for him to replenish his mana.
It took him no time until his Mana was replenished.
He had enough time to think about many things like his attitude towards beasts, how he fought, and which flaws he made during the short fight.
The biggest problem was his mental state but this would only last for a few more fights until he made up his mind.
Following this Jason went down the three and searched for more one-star beasts.
He wanted to use the one-star wild beasts to clear his mind before he would try fighting two-star wild beasts.
His dagger was sharp enough to penetrate all kinds of wild beasts and Jason focused his mana consumption on his lower body to look after his speed.
Following this, a few hours passed until the sun went down and Jason went into the dome again with clothes full of blood.
Jason attacked another three small one-star wild beast groups but he killed only four beasts because one time he made a noise missing his timing while another try caused him to almost die as he was almost crushed by the one-star bison he attacked.
But Jason found out something important.
His eyes the closer a beast was to him the easier it was for Jason to predict where he would be attacked.
It was still a theory but Jason found his eyes more and more interesting which made him curious.
'What special eyes did my mother have and are my eyes a mutation from her eyes or is there something else I don't know about them? I doubt these eyes are normal mana eyes.'
But there wouldn't be anyone to answer his questions so Jason had to disregard this thought.
He had to find out everything by himself but that was okay for him.
Calling a shuttle to take him home, Jason had to wait a few minutes.
Gazing inside the storage space he saw seven one-star wild beast carcasses and two two-star carcasses.
It was more than Jason expected for the first day and going through his fights while waiting for the shuttle to come he remembered many flaws.
But for Jason, the whole day proceeded smoother than he previously thought as he was still uninjured and healthy.
He expected to sustain some injuries but everything was fine.
The shuttle arrived and Jason was in front of his apartment 40 minutes later.
After ordering delivery Jason went inside the apartment to rectify his flaws.
Battling with wild beasts was definitely different than training at home and after today Jason understood that he had to hone his technique with real combat experience.
Otherwise, he would always stay behind others.