Eternal Melody Chapter 201 - Difficult For Her

Chapter 201 - Difficult For Her

As much as she wants him? Sumire repeated those words in her head and frowned. It is hard to measure another person's desires. Nobody can truly understand somebody else's longing. Longing for another person to the point of deprivation, craving for them so badly and yet not being able to get them. Since she realized she fell in love with Terashima Yuhi, she suffered a lot.
It was strange, falling in love with him.
She fell in love with him shortly after their first meeting, so it was difficult for her. When she realized she loved him, she wanted to see Yuhi every single day. But she couldn't, she had to control herself. She didn't write that note half heartily. She will see him once she has made a name for herself, until then she must refrain from meeting him.
It was difficult for her but she survived so long and coped with the pain and longing. But now that she has learned his warmth, it will be difficult for her.
"So you know what I was thinking?"
"Mm?" The two of them were walking down the busy streets of Tokyo hand in hand.
"We should go somewhere together."
"Somewhere?"
"A trip, just us two. How do you feel about blue skies, a field of sunflowers and an ocean?"
Sumire paused to think. She is not that fond of beaches or the hot weather. She preferred to stay in doors whenever it was summer. But this is probably the only chance she will get to be alone with Yuhi properly. Sure they have spent the last few days practically glued to the hip, but this is different. They will go to a place where nobody knows them.
"I'd like to see you in your swimsuit."
Yuhi laughed. "Just an old pair of trunks, unless you're after something else?"
Sumire tilted her head innocently. "I don't know what you're talking about."
She was messing with him of course but only because he saw right through her. The other day she briefly disclosed how she was going crazy around him. She pointed out that this was a serious thing and they needed to discuss it. Since then Yuhi has slipped in a few jokes.
"If that's what you want, you don't have to wait until we go to the beach." Yuhi brought his lips to her ear. "You can see it whenever you want."
The atmosphere around Yuhi suddenly turned sexual. Sumire had to admit that she was impressed whenever this happened. Yuhi was an excellent boyfriend, he was a gentleman but he also knew how to please her. He knew how to make her happy without doing it. For example the current situation where he is kissing her earlobe, one hand on her thighs and the other raising her shirt.
"Sumire, you really are pretty. It's a waste for us not to do anything."
"A waste?" Sumire repeated.
"Mmm, you--" Yuhi trailed off. "-dont want to try?"
The offer was tempting. But they both knew they couldn't.
"Sorry." Sumire brushed her lips against his. "I want too and you know that. But I don't want to cause you any problems."
If this were the old days then they wouldn't have to care about such rules or rather this would be the perfect age for it. But times have changed. Yuhi is two years older than her, there isn't a large age difference but he should know better than to touch somebody who is underage.
She knew that Yuhi didn't think of this as a problem. Nobody had to know too. The walls don't talk so it's not like anybody will realize. But what if something goes wrong? There are far too many risks involved.
Besides a part of the reason why she didn't want to was.. "Black Alice." Sumire mumbled.
Yuhi frowned when he heard her words. "Don't think about it."
"Yuhi, we can't ignore it forever."
Recently she gets this feeling that somebody is watching her too. Sumire didn't want to worry Yuhi so she only informed Shin about it. Shin told her he would check up on the matter and get back to her. But so far she has not heard anything.
"I know we can't." Yuhi admitted. "But I just don't want you to stress over these things. It isn't good for you."
"Yuhi, I appreciate your concern but I am not weak."
Yuhi extended his hand out and pinched her cheeks. "I know your not, you're amazing." He nodded at this. "But I just want to help you Sumire, you're not alone anymore."
She covered her face when she heard him say those words. "Uh, I thought you were going to lecture me. I didn't expect a rain of compliments."
"Rain of compliments? That was only one."
It was only one but it was enough to make her heart beat fast. Yuhi pulled her hands away from her face. He brushed his forehead against hers. "Don't be afraid."
"I--I am trying not to." She muttered.
"Good." Yuhi kissed her forehead softly. His lips seemed to linger on that space for a few extra seconds before he pulled away. "Lets get going, otherwise the night will disappear."
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"So, I don't understand why you buy so much food but don't eat it."
Yuhi rolled his eyes. "You never know what you will need." She watched as he tossed some snacks onto the trolley.
"Ah-huh, but it just seems like a waste of money." She thought back to the amount of snacks she found in his apartment. Even though he doesn't go there often there was so much food.
"At least I will be prepared when something happens."
Something huh? What does he expect will-- she paused in midthought. Well if the world turns upside down due to the superpower thing then indeed they would need supplies.
Sumire grabbed some things from the shelves and tossed it into the trolley.
Yuhi grinned. "That's my girl, you catch on quick."
My girl? Sumire repeated his words in her head. Sometimes Yuhi uses terms that make her blush. He calls her love, my dear and sometimes he calls her his wife.
She wonders if this person is serious. He loves her a lot yes but the wife thing? Does Yuhi actually want to spend the rest of their lives together? He wants to be with her forever? Thump. Thump. She hears the rapid sound of her heartbeat. Forever with Yuhi? She actually liked that idea more than she thought.
The last few days she got a glimpse of their life together. It seems like if she is with this person she will achieve the happy life she has always dreamed about. But is it okay for her to be happy? A person like-- her thoughts broke off when she felt Yuhi kiss her. No, it seemed like he fed her something.
"Chocolate?"
"Mm, its a freebie. Tasty?"
Sumire slowly nodded her head and Yuhi laughed. "Nobody else is around, maybe we should get another."