The Sins of Anna Chapter 29 The Struggle 7.3

It has been a month now since I went back to the mail room the issue had sold well but no other writing opportunity came. Mike and Maliki took turns taking me to the shooting range and sparing classes with other clan members who were threatened to keep me being there quiet. I see so little of Ren I feel so anxious. Why was I doing this when I can't even be with him. Maliki told me that tonight I should go to Ren's room after most of the people have gone to bed. I have been concerned hearing how he's been crueler lately and not sleeping. There's a mess with drugs being sold in his territory which Mike and Maliki have been giving me books to study to know about at night. I guess the drugs are not of his own and the people responsible are using the Feng Clans name. problem is its members from the disband Golden Dragon Clan and they are in hiding and leave no trace as to where to find them. The talk of marriage to the Black Panthers Daughter and Ren has reached my ears too. I can't help feeling sad. I prepare as night falls I wait for the halls to become quiet when I hear a soft knock on my door and a whisper say it's time. With that I open the door and Maliki is standing there weird look on his face, to avoid prying eyes I had been given boys clothes and a wig. I must look weird. Suddenly coming to his senses, he smiles and escorts me to Ren's room. Maliki tapped three times opened the door and pushed me in and closed the door behind me. I feel like I was suddenly tossed into the lion's den though in a way I was. There by the window a shadow sat the figure that I had become so familiar with, and yet had become a stranger to lately.
"Is it a habit of yours to always be looking out a window?" I say cautiously as I move closer to him. His body shifts looking at me with dark cold eyes.
"Why are you here Anna?" He looks so mad I freeze in my tracks, but I don't want to be sent back yet.
"I was just worried," I whisper lowering my head. "Ren." I call his name pleading, but his face just becomes pained.
"Did you grow tired of me finally?" He said nothing turning to look out the window.
"Ren," I watched him flinch at me calling his name a second time.
"All right my lord I just thought maybe I could be an ear to listen to you if you want to vent. But if I'm not needed I will leave here." Trying not to cry I take off the necklace placing it on the coffee table. Turning to leave, I tell myself there's no point being here if I can't see or talk to him. Placing my hand on the knob I feel like I'm breaking, hoping he would stop me. However, I know he wouldn't. I close my eye and exit the thrush hold to his room this is for the best. I never wanted to be part of the clan anyway. I head to my room and pack the things that where mine. Mike drives me home that night. He looks as sad as me. I go to hand him back the gun that was presented to me by Maliki. However, he shakes his head.
"Keep it little sister you can still be in danger, this way you can protect yourself now, but If you ever in danger, here," He hands me a paper it's a concealed weapons permit and a smaller paper with two numbers on it.
"This will make it legal to carry it without questions asked. The others a guarantee that you will be saved if something happens on my honor I pledge to you because you are the true Don mother." he says placing it in my hand. All I could do was thank him and watch him pull away. It feels like ages since I been home. Good bye Ren.