The Sins of Anna Chapter 20 My Lord is My Love 6.1

Chapter Six
After I left her to get situated I found myself looking for Maliki he's the only one who would have given her that. What the hell was he thinking.
"Hey you! Where the hells Maliki!" Spotting a young boy in the corridor I holler out to him demanding an answer.
"He's waiting in your chambers my lord." The boy replies meekly his face lowered to me.
Feeling more annoyed I turned on my heels heading for my room. As I enter, Maliki is smiling. I can't help feeling he planned this whole fucking thing as I scowl at him. This whole thing is screwed up. Why the hell did I agree and why the hell did I say to forget me as my lover. Without a word to Maliki I walk over removing the top layer shirt and plop myself on the white L shaped couch in the center of the room. Maliki places a brandy on a coaster on the glass coffee table before me. Seeing his smile, I got more annoyed. Honestly why the hell do I care so much? There are plenty of woman out there, I should just send her away and forget it, I wanted her to stay away from this world in the first place away from me. The expression must have revealed what I was thinking because Maliki's expression become stern as he watched me.
"If you're going to keep scowling at me with pained eyes then you're going to make me wish I had just done away with her instead. I allowed you to have your fun because it's amusing and as your friend I wanted you to have what you want; besides I get how you feel we are human even if we are not allowed to show it to outsiders. However even tonight you went out to have fun with her without any protection, and ended up in a dangerous situation once again because of her, risked your life again. Honestly giving her the gun was the right call because someone in love is more likely to become a shield then a normal follower. With her as your bodyguard she will be able to stay by your side, this way you won't need any more excuses either to go out of your way to see her or force her to come to you. Now she belongs to you. Or were you only interested because she was something you shouldn't have claimed? Now that you can claim her any time you wish do you want to push her away if so you should have done that from the start. It might have been underhanded but she ultimately chose for herself." Maliki looked at me seriously like an annoying older brother.
Giving me, of all people a lecture. Only someone close to me would have the balls to do that without fear of me cutting off their tongue and yet part of me still wants to, as I look at my brother. However, I know every well he's right. I didn't want her to leave my side that's why I listened and threatened her to join our family as at least a pretense thinking its ok if she hated me because she'd still be here, but now, it's real, how am I going to be able to approach her when everyone will be watching. Can I stand seeing her eyes full of hate? My mind rolling with thoughts. First thing to worry about is making sure she can protect herself from now on because she's in even more danger then I anticipated. Targeted again after only a few days after the incident no telling when someone will make a move on her again. He said he wanted vengeance for the Golden Dragons but who is he to them?
"Maliki get information on her ex-boyfriend David Johnson and what he has to do with the Golden Dragon and I want it now and by now, I mean yesterday dig up all the fucking dirt you can on him." I feel my pulse quicken as thoughts of how I will take care of him cross my mind it will bring me so much joy imagining his blood in my hands ultimately this is all his fault.
Maliki unfazed smiles mischievously, nodding to my command.
"With Pleasure my lord. Nothing satisfies me more than seeing that blood lust in your eyes while you smile with amusement." With that Maliki excuses, himself.
Unable to settle down I find myself walking the corridors once more. Imagining her sleeping face from a couple night ago, I find myself in front of her room. Gently knocking there is no answer. I creak the door open and enter, little thing doesn't even lock the door is she stupid there is danger here too if you are to naive and oblivious. Her silhouette spread across the bed in the darkness. Walking over to stand by her bedside, I reach out to touch her to feel her when I hear footsteps in the corridor outside and I withdraw my shaking hand before touching her. This isn't right she shouldn't be here. Frustrated scratching my head I glance around the room, I spot the gun that had been given to her on the dresser. Walking over I pick it up tracing the handle with my thumb. If I just killer her here and now, she would still be my angel, I don't want to see hate for me in her eyes, I bury my head in my fist as I clutch the gun. Pointing it at her, it's hard to believe she's so damn trusting that she sleeps unaware. Taking a deep breath, I lower the gun my hands shaking, no my whole body is. I've killed so many that I've lost count but looking at the bed I can't, what the hell's wrong with me have I become weak.