Chapter 9: Let Out the Other Ji Lian BingTranslator: Night Fury
Proofread by DragonRider
Action of the [Love Monarchical type Girlfriend]: Going up, kept rising up… I couldn’t close my eyes. Don’t be afraid. It would definitely work this time… I want to see him… I want to hear his voice. I want him to stare at me. I want… I want to touch him with my bare hands.
I missed you so much… I wanted to be held in your arms… I dumped all the scary things which were in my way and rose up from the abyss. I did my best to stretch my hands ahead as if I was trying to pick up the stars. Even one inch closer was better for me. I just wanted to be closer to him… It would be fine. I had already tried so many times. And this time I would arrive there as well for sure… Even in the endless darkness, I could still see a beam of light.
Though the light were so faint that it was hardly able to be seen, it still gave me great hope.
That was right. As long as I could gaze at that beam of light devotedly and keep going up, I would definitely be there… And finally, I arrived.
I reached to the dark gray ice layer, through which I could see the ‘outside world’ vaguely.
The line which divided ‘this place’ into two parts was the border of consciousness and subconsciousness, the diaphragm of mind, the boundary of spirit and the cutting line of soul.
She imprisoned me in her deep consciousness and prevented me from sensing any information from the outside world… I could only struggle to go up and reach to this ice layer, watching the outside world through the ice… Although I shared memories and experiences with her, I still wanted to see him with my own eyes.
I wanted to feel him as much as I could. I wanted to spend more time with my Cheng Jun… I reached out my hand and touched the ice layer, telling my burning desire with my eyes closed.
The space around me started to shake. My strong emotion of missing him even cracked the ice layer which separated me from the outside.
So long as I kept doing this, I could be outside temporarily… Although she would push me back to the deepest place again afterwards, I still felt it worthwhile as far as I could see Cheng Jun.
He had promised to have a date with me. Ha ha~ A date~ Last date had ended so fast and I hadn’t even had the time to enjoy the moment. This time I had to leave some good memories.
As for the place for our date, I wanted to go the amusement park. Sitting in the Ferris wheel with him was something I had always longed for. I wished I could lean on his shoulders.
The aquarium sounded good too. It would be so romantic there.
However, Cheng Jun had said that he would take care of our next date… So where would he bring me to? I was looking forward to it, ha ha ha~
What if we ended up in a hotel… Well~~~
“Stop thinking like a fool. This body doesn’t belong to you alone.” A sulky voice came through the ice layer to my ear.
Then I opened my eyes and saw a person who looked exactly like me standing at the other side of the ice layer and staring at me with icy look on her face.
I looked at her right in the eyes… She was me, or so to speak, I was part of her…
“Ah, the other me… What are you doing here?”
“Puff, did you just call me the other you? It does match your character… Hmm, aibo? Come on~ you gotta give me a break. We are not in that kind of relationship.”
After the other me had called me ‘aibo’, she held her arms with her eyebrows knitted while showing a loathing expression. Then she turned her head to look away… But what did she mean by saying ‘aibo’? Ah, I see.
After searching in my memory for a while, I finally understood what the word ‘aibo’ meant. I heard the other me murmur in a low voice, “Am I crazy? Why did I joke with her?” Those were not her exact words but I believed she meant that. It actually made me feel happy. Then I gave out a smile and said, “Ha ha, you have joked a lot lately. I have to give Cheng Jun credit about this.” The old her would never crack a joke, especially the ones which sounded like a self-mockery.
Thanks to Cheng Jun, she also became a bit softer than before. Was this iceberg girl beginning to melt?
The words I had just said seemed to hit the sensitive spot of her. Her extreme anger even begot a laughter. Then she stared at me and began to sneer, “Ha ha ha, Soft Bing… I should just call you ice-cream. After all, you have such a pure and ignorant brain. Ha ha ha ha~” Her reaction met my expectation. So I had already thought of my answers.
“Really? I was separated from you, remember? So call me ignorant or stupid or whatever. I don’t see that having these characters is a bad thing as long as I can find happiness. Ho ho~”
“…” Ha ha ha, I just got her speechless, that arrogant Miss Lian Bing.
So she didn’t realize I still had some shrewdness myself? Lol~
“You are unbelievable.” She could only utter those words.
“You are talking about me… or you? Or… us?”
“Humph!”
She didn’t respond. Instead, she snorted and stamped on the ice fiercely. With the sound of the crack, I saw the surface of the ice layer. Then I cried out in surprise and took a step back. The next second, with a thunderous thud, a huge hole was broken in the ice.
Had she just broken the ice wall by herself? I emerged from the water and looked at her in a daze while she stared back me.
Never had her wrinkled eyebrows been unfolded when she saw me. I already got used to her impatient expression. And I always managed to let her abandon all her graceful gestures as a lady and show her detest to me straightly.
I knew that she hated me.
Deep down her heart, she hated me a lot.
Or I could call her ‘denying herself’.
The part of her that she wanted to deny was the base which formed me.
Meanwhile, she suppressed me in deep of her consciousness in order to eliminate me… However, to my surprise, she had just destroyed the barrier and let me out on her own.
“What are you still doing there? Are you expecting me to pull you up?”
“Well? It’ll be better if you can lend me a hand…”
Hearing me saying this, she expressed an impatient look. Still, she reached out her hand to the water.
Then I grabbed her hand immediately, being afraid that she would regret abruptly.
After she had pulled me out, she let go of my hand at once… A strange feeling rushed to my brain due to the body contact we had just made. Now I could touch that light I had always been eager for anytime when I wanted.
However, I didn’t rush outside excitedly. Instead, I watched the view of her back.
After a long silence, she said something with her back to me, “… It’s your turn.”
“Can I?” I knew exactly what she meant without any explanation.
Actually, we didn’t need to talk with other face to face like this. I knew all the things she thought while she could also see through me thoroughly.
When she turned around, that symbolic smile on her face showed up again. Unlike the smile I had, that was more like a mask instead of a real smile from the deep of her heart.
“I never thought you could hang in there… Aren’t you afraid of being in ‘this kind of place’ alone? How could you not be swallowed by the ‘abyss’? It seems that you have a stronger will power than I thought. Ha ha ha ha… Consider it as my award to you.”
“As long as I have love in my heart, I will survive at any place.”
“Is that right? That’s funny. What’s so good about that shy boy…” She was saying something against her will again.
She looked relaxed now, but actually she had only used those words to hide her true feelings. I thought she was just being dishonest to herself at some point.
“You know better than anybody the outstanding features about Cheng Jun. Am I right? Ha ha, after all we share memories and feelings together~ Do you think I don’t know about you rubbing the jade which was presented by him with great care everyday?”
“…”
She ignored my question? I would take that as a yes. Ho ho~
“Just leave now. I could finally stop hearing your jabbering. Quietness is always something I want.”
“Do you, do you want to get in there?” Would she go back to the place where I had stayed? No… I thought she would go to somewhere even deeper…
“Ha ha ha ha, this place suits me better than the outside world… For you, staying here is torture. But for me, it is enjoyment.”
“No… this… this place shouldn’t even exist.” This place was the common ‘pain’ for the two of us, the other half of our world which she pretended to ignore and forget on purpose.
This was the first time I overlooked the abyss under the ice layer from ‘this side’, which gave me an even more direct fear of ‘that side’.
There were lots of dead bodies in the gray and cold water.
Corpses were everywhere from the top to the bottom of the abyss. Most of them were bones and few were dead bodies. Some of the corpses were rotten while others were still fresh… Every time I wanted to approach the ice layer, they would be in the way.
I had been there the moment when she was born. So I was well aware of that place.
That was her… Ji Lian Bing. And those corpses were all the proofs of her paranoid… They showed the darkest and the dirtiest part of her.
“Shouldn’t exist? Hahaha…” She didn’t look back anymore and stepped into the water.
However, her feet didn’t get wet. There was a hand reaching out from the dirty water for her to step on.
“But, those are the parts which formed my ‘nature’…” From the gray and dark water surface, a throne which was piled up by skeletons was raised up by a lot of corpses.
She walked toward there breezily. Every step she walked landed on a hand. It seemed those hands were willing to be her pedal.
Unlike me who was a prisoner there, she was a queen. She loved the dead bodies and they adored her… I saw her sitting on the throne with her hands putting on the armrests which were made by skulls. Then she said to me with her legs crossed smilingly, “Lately, I was a bit too innocent… Being influenced by your excessively sweet thoughts, I have become weird.”
“Haven’t you become happier?”
“Happy…?” She didn’t refute me. I thought she was also in a trance right now.
“Anyway, you can take charge of my body now. All the things that happen outside have nothing to do with me. This will also help me go back to the beginning of myself.” She snapped her finger and those dead bodies began to sink the skeleton throne into the water.
And those human skeletons under the water all began to dance.
She still smiled gracefully.
“I… don’t admit this!” I stood up and shouted to her.
“You really don’t care if Cheng Jun will be taken away by other girls?”
“Cheng Jun… An Jun Cheng, I only want his dead body, not his love… So it’s none of my business with whom he will fool around with as long as I could have his dead body,” she said those words to me.
“Well, are you being jealous right now?”
“… If I really am jealous right now, do you think those bitches will still be alive?”
“So, you didn’t come here and change place with me because you could not restrain your murderous intention?”
“…” I had guessed right.
She still cared about Cheng Jun.
There were so many girls around Cheng Jun these days, so she was swallowed by her jealousy and almost had lost control of her homicidal intent.
However, she was also scared that if she killed those girls, Cheng Jun would dislike her and loath her. That was why she had fled here.
Since that was the case… I would take it from here!
“Hum, watch me using my feminine charm to get Cheng Jun back~”
“Hohohoho…, I’ll wait and see what will happen…”
I would let Cheng Jun be mad about me![Corpse Lover Homicidal Maniac]’s tranquility: Going down, kept going down… I closed my eyes and let my body drift down by itself… I wanted to have him… I wanted to have his dead body. I wanted him to look at me with his two hollow eye sockets. I wanted to… touch his skeletons with my bare hands.
I wanted so much… to hold his dead body in my arms… The skeleton throne collapsed. Then I lay flatly while dropping to the abyss.
It would be all right… I was still me, I was still Ji Lian Bing. The thing I had always been obsessed with never changed.
“Enjoy your last peaceful life as you wish…” I felt calmness in my heart. That was the life of the body… “I’m afraid you might be a scarier existence than me…” Jealousy, that could corrupt the bone.