Chapter 181: I Cannot Hate Him Just Because I Couldn I t Get His Love
When Lin Qingqian blinked her clear eyes in confusion, he opened his arms and hugged her.
Lin Qingqian was stunned. When she reacted and was about to push him away, the man’s low and hoarse voice rang in her ears—
“I had a great time this Spring Festival. Thank you.”
As soon as he finished speaking, he loosened his arms and rubbed her head. He smiled and said, “See you in Lan City.”
Without waiting for Lin Qingqian to speak, he turned around, got into the car, and instructed the chauffeur to drive.
The other men sitting in the back of the car also waved goodbye to Lin
Qingqian.
Lin Qingqian blinked her eyes and watched as the car drove further and further away under the moonlight. There was an indescribably strange feeling in her heart.
She felt that Jiang Yanshen seemed to be different from before.
This difference seemed to be leading them in a better direction.
Lin Qingqian pursed her lips and smiled. She turned around and walked towards home.
The moment she entered, she saw Lin Chaoyan’s unhappy expression. She walked over and held Lin Chaoyan’s arm intimately. “Auntie…”
Lin Chaoyan glared at her angrily. “Oh, you still remember that I’m your Auntie? As the saying goes, when a person reaches the shore, the person prays no more!
Previously, you were so desperate to divorce that Jiang fellow. Have you forgotten so quickly?”
She poked Lin Qingqian in the head and scolded. Lin Qingqian pursed her lips and said, “Auntie, I’m not back together with Jiang Yanshen, and I won’t reconcile our marriage.”
“Do you think that Auntie is stupid, or blind?” Lin Chaoyan rolled her eyes at her. “If there’s nothing between the two of you, would he come to our mountain during the New Year?”
Lin Qingqian bit her lip and didn’t say anything.
Lin Chaoyan pulled her to sit down and said earnestly, “Auntie really doesn’t have any expectations of you. I just want you to live a peaceful life and find someone reliable to live with.
That Jiang guy is not someone who you can lead a stable life with.”
Lin Qingqian lowered her eyes, her eyelashes that were as thin as a cicada’s wings cast a shadow under her eyelids. After a moment of silence, she spoke slowly.
“Auntie, I understand what you’re saying, but what can I do?”
Lin Chaoyan was stunned. She only heard her calm voice—
“After all, he’s the man I’ve truly loved for seven years. Everything about him in these seven years has long been engraved in my bones and blood. Even if I want to erase him from my life, I’m powerless.”
The dim yellow light of the gas lamp fell on her plain face, and there was an indescribable loneliness and sadness in her expression.
“I can be heartless and divorce him. I can also not see or care about him. I can even die of old age alone. However, I can’t say hurtful words every time I see him!
I cannot hate him just because I couldn’t get his love.”
Every time she said something to hurt Jiang Yanshen in order to get him away from her, wasn’t it also hurting herself?
Lin Qingqian looked at Lin Chaoyan calmly and said, “Auntie, I can’t hate him.” Lin Chaoyan fell silent.
She had also been young and in love before. How could she not know Lin Qingqian’s feelings?
“The Jiang family is a place of trouble, and Jiang Yanshen is not a kind person.
If you continue to be involved with him, you won’t have a good ending.”
Lin Qingqian lowered her eyes. “He said that he wouldn’t pester me.”
If she only needed to not love someone else for the rest of her life, not marry someone else, it wouldn’t be difficult for her.
Lin Chaoyan knew that although she looked docile, she was actually an adamant child. As such, she sighed helplessly.
“You’ve already grown up. You have your own ideas for many things, so Auntie won’t say much,” Lin Chaoyan said earnestly. “I just hope that you won’t be like Auntie in the future. When I was young, I only cared about love, but in the end,
I ended up with nothing..”