Holding On to My Man Chapter 21 part1

Qin Shitian's cultivation is powerful, Gu Bai can't easily catch up to him.
When he rushed to Qin Shitian's bedchamber, he saw several panic-stricken servants escaping frantically.
In the room, Qin Shitian's ink black hair scattered and his eyes were red as he threw Mo Haige onto the bed. His mouth incessantly roared in outrage.
"You actually regard benzun as a pestilent poison. You are benzun's person yet you dare to be disgusted with benzun! You know how much great effort benzun spent to get the jadeite!"
This is the first time in all these years that Qin Shitian got angry at Mo Haige, he was clearly angered to the point of becoming crazy. He treated Mo Haige incredibly well, but in the end he won't even let him touch his hand, as if he's a disgusting plague. How can his heart be well?
Qi and blood surged*, Qin Shitian seemed to be possessed by the devil*. He captured Mo Haige and locked him tightly in his arms. He buried his head deeply in his neck and breathed in his scent greedily.
*Blood boil/furious
*走火入魔 it can also mean that something has gone wrong in spiritual or martial arts training.
Mo Haige frowned in disgust and wanted to break away, but Qin Shitian held too tightly and therefore he couldn't escape for a while.
The more he struggled, the angrier Qin Shitian became. Both eyes reddened and he lost his senses. He opened his mouth to gnaw on his neck and both hands wandered on his body wantonly.
"Shifu, let me go!" Mo Haige shouted in panic and struggled.
"You are benzun's person, your life and everything is given to you by benzun, you dare reject benzun?!"
Qin Shitian is a unscrupulous, vicious and merciless great devil, if it wasn't because he truly likes Mo Haige, how could he have the patience to endure Mo Haige's despise all these years.
Today when the jade pendant broke from the fall, it completely ignited the accumulated dissatisfaction in his heart. Mo Haige’s struggle will only make him even more angry.
Seeing his clothes being torn by Qin Shitian, Mo Haige’s eyes revealed deep despair. Amidst the despair, it also carried a hint of resentment and rue.
He couldn't help but take out the dagger on his body and stabbed it toward Qin Shitian. Qin Shitian didn't check for a moment and was hit, he hissed in pain and let go.
"Shifu, I...."
He was able to get away and see Qin Shitian bleeding. Facing the eyes that became redder and the burst of murderous aura, his face paled a little.
Then he suddenly turned and fled. He knew that it wasn't right to break the gift that shifu spent effort to prepare, and stabbing shifu is even more wrong, but he couldn’t stand shifu getting close. He deeply remembers the first time he saw Qin Shitian, he was drenched in blood and looked like a devil.
Gu Bai saw that he had escaped and couldn’t help but suddenly curse "fuck" in his heart.
Can't you see that the great devil's expression isn't good? You should comfort him a bit, say a little sorry or something, then leave. You always run so fast, the rest of us will have to carry the pot* for you, big brother!
*take the blame/scapegoat
Silently mourning, Gu Bai looked around the empty bedchamber after everyone fled. He had to gather his courage and harden his scalp* to go forward. It's all because of Ah Jiu's wish to protect sect leader daren. The emotions of the original host absolutely won't allow him to stay away from Qin Shitian like others.
*bite the bullet
"Sect leader, don't be angry, it's just that young sect leader can't accept your kindness at the moment. After some time, he will come to understand the painstaking efforts of sect leader....Sect leader, Ah Jiu will handle the wound for you."
Gu Bai carefully and cautiously moved closer to ask the red eyed Qin Shitian whose face is full of bloodthirst.
Although this man is a powerhouse, the dagger that Mo Haige used to injure him isn't an ordinary item. If he doesn't treat the wound in time, Qin Shitian will suffer great injury from the large amount of blood loss.
However, Qin Shitian stood there and didn't move as he coldly took one look at him. The blood red pupils vanished and he spoke with icy coldness in his eyes.
"All of them ran away but you came forward instead, not afraid that benzun will kill you?"
"Ah Jiu's life is sect leader's..."
The expression on Gu Bai's face is still loyal, but he is actually mourning in his heart. He also wants to leave, but he won't be able to complete the mission and will also die.
Qin Shitian sharply stared at him for a while.
Seeing that he looks calm without any fear and those pure eyes are full of loyalty and anxious worry, a sincere concern without any pretence, the anger in his heart gradually subsided.
He maintained his cold expression as he sat on the stool next to him and took out a bottle of wound medicine from his space ring and placed it on the table. He spoke with a dark expression, "Apply medicine for benzun!"
"Yes, sect leader."
Gu Bai responded and ran over quickly.
He unraveled Qin Shitian's clothes to reveal his firm and robust chest that was bleeding non-stop from a savage wound. First, he wiped off the surrounding blood using the clear water on the table, and then carefully poured the medicinal powder onto the wound.
Due to the closeness, his breathing puffed on Qin Shitian's chest. The warm feeling made Qin Shitian hold his breath involuntarily*. He watched his careful and worried movements, not knowing why a flow of heat suddenly surged in his heart, warming up his whole body.*....
*unable to control oneself
*四肢百骸 all the limbs and bones
Qin Shitian suddenly pinched his chin and forced him to look up at him.
"They all fear benzun and regard benzun as a scourge*, why aren't you afraid of benzun? Benzun will kill anyone when in a bad mood. Don't you think that the benzun is a monster? Are you really not afraid of death?..."
*Severe floods and fierce beasts (idiom)
Extremely dangerous or threatening.
No emotion could be seen in his eyes, it flashed with some kind of bloodthirsty glint that can terrify people. If ordinary people faced this, they will be frightened to the point of becoming unable to speak.
Gu Bai is of course fearful in his heart, but his emotions can be controlled at any time. Therefore, Qin Shitian only saw purity and earnesty in his eyes.
"Sect leader, Ah Jiu have said before, Ah Jiu’s life is saved by you, Ah Jiu will only be loyal to sect leader in this life. No matter what sect leader wants Ah Jiu to do, Ah Jiu will do it, even if sect leader wants Ah Jiu's life...."
What's the feeling of being fully looked at by someone? Qin Shitian didn't know before, but at this moment, he saw the reflection of his appearance in Gu Bai's eyes and his heart swelled.
"Mo Haige's life was also saved by benzun, benzun brought him back from the heap of dead bodies. Why does he alienate benzun like that...."
He muttered while being reluctant to take back the hand pinching Gu Bai's chin. The boy's skin is warm, smooth and tender, very comfortable to touch.