Because I simply love you Chapter 490: A second try (2)

Chapter 490: A second try (2)

Jianyu deeply pondered over it. In a way, she was right. Serena was never that weak. Even when she realized her condition the first time, she bravely faced it and came out of it.
Jianyu said in defeat, “But why do you want another child? We have Zixin.”
“What is wrong in wanting to give him a sibling?” Serena didn’t give up.
“Not if your body cannot take it. If you insist on having another child and…if something happens to you, then what about Zixin? We have to think about him too. He would not be able to take it if anything went wrong. He is only five years old. Do you want our one child to suffer for the sake of having another one? You know how important place a mother has in a child’s life?”
“I know…of course I know that. I don’t want Zixin to suffer.”
Jianyu clutched her hand a bit tighter. “And it’s not only Zixin. Do you know how much I freaked out that night when you gave birth to Zixin? The doctor…he said that I could choose only either you or him. And even if I chose you, your condition was too critical. You were…you were so close to dying damn it!”
No matter how much time had passed by since that night, Jianyu always shuddered whenever he recalled it. His eyes would involuntarily turn moist, thinking that he could have lost her forever.
Even now, the corner of his eyes was slightly wet.
Serena felt terrible. She could see anything but not his precious Jianyu and Zixin crying. She hopped into his embrace and tightly hugged him.
Jianyu wrapped his hands around her waist and hugged her back. They silently leaned on each other for a while.
Even through the hug, Serena realized how Jianyu was slightly trembling. She felt a warm, wet sensation on her neck, and it made Serena cry too.
“You know…” she hoarsely said.
“Hm?”
“Giving Zixin a sibling is not the only reason that I want to have another child.”
“Then?”
“…you want a daughter, right?”
Jianyu stiffened.
Damn! So what bro and Shin said was true. She indeed noticed it. I am so stupid! It’s all because of me.
Serena pinched his cheek hard.
“Ow, ow, ow! What are you doing? That hurts!” he whined.
Serena narrowed her eyes. “I know you must be calling yourself stupid in your mind.”
Jianyu coughed and cleared his throat. “I-I wasn’t…” he averted his gaze.
“Shut up. You cannot hide it from me. And you are not stupid. Yes, I noticed it. You were always a little different around Nuo, Meixiu, and Meirong. It took me a while, but then I finally realized that you wished you had a girl too.”
“It’s nothing like-“
She sighed. “Jianyu, it’s not your fault. Don’t think that you brought any ideas into my head, okay? I was already thinking about it a while back. It’s not wrong to wish for a daughter. And I also understand your point about Zixin.”
“But at the same time, I just want to give it another try. Jianyu, I know you care about me, and I really appreciate it, but please trust me. I handled it five years ago because you were there with me. Even now, you are with me. So I will be just fine.”
Jianyu was silent for a long time. He knew that she wouldn’t back out. Her gaze was clear and determined.
He said, “Alright, if that’s what you wish, then we will go for a checkup.”
Serena’s eyes sparkled in delight.
“Really!?” She jumped up in excitement. She couldn’t believe that Jianyu finally agreed.
“But!”
She stopped.
Jianyu squinted his gaze. “There is a but. If the doctor says that it’s really impossible, then promise me that that would be the end of it. You won’t insist on it again.”
She furiously nodded. “I promise! I know that I am important in your and Zixin’s life, just as you two are in mine. I will not take unnecessary risks and put you and Zixin in jeopardy. We will only go ahead if I can be treated and safely deliver.”
Jianyu mumbled. “I just don’t want you to feel disappointed…”
Serena chuckled. “I won’t and even if I did, isn’t my sweet and awesome husband with me?” she pecked his cheek.
Jianyu pinched her nose. “You…”
Serena cheekily grinned. “Hehe~~”
“Let’s go. Everybody would be worried about us.”
“En!”
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“Mama!” Zixin came rushing towards them. “Can we go to the lake now!”
Nuo asked, “Is there any tiger? A wolf or a snake!”
“Huh?” Serena was confused at first, but then she remembered that Nana had made that excuse to let kids stay back.
“Yup! The path is safe. We all can go!”
“Yay!”
Nana looked at the pair and smiled the same as Jinhai, Shin and Huian.
It seems as if they have sorted it out.
The rest of the picnic went on peacefully, and now the atmosphere was much calmer since Serena wasn’t giving Jianyu the cold shoulder.
At the end of the day, all the kids dozed off to sleep, tired and exhausted.
Jianyu looked at Shin. “You said that you know the best gynecologist. Can you give her contact?”
Shin grinned. “Don’t worry. I will arrange your appointment with her. Leave it to me. When do you want to visit?”
“Tomorrrow!” Serena chirped.
“Ssshh!!” Nana and Huian giggled and shushed her. “The kids are sleeping.”
The youngest, Jin, slightly stirred in his sleep but then went back to his la-la land again.
“Oops…” Serena stuck out her tongue.
Huian laughed. “If Bao woke up, then it would be over.”
Shin’s mouth twitched. “That is true. The energy he has…”
Nana quietly held Serena’s hand and squeezed it. She whispered. “Good luck Serena. I hope all goes well for you and Jianyu tomorrow at the checkup.”
“Thank you, Nana…I really pray for the results to be positive.”
Her heart raced, thinking about tomorrow.
Oh, God, please. Let everything be alright. Please, please, please!