Chapter 451 Regrets And Ambitions
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The barrier kept cracking. It wasn't long before cracks like a spider's web appeared on it.
One single push was all it needed to shatter.
Lith was now in a stalemate with this external force. His thoughts ran wild like horses but it was not enough. Not only that, he was running out of topics to think about.
His thoughts were becoming increasingly incoherent, and he needed new topics.
Amidst his random thoughts, Lith suddenly got the idea to recall things about his previous life. Lith ran with the idea and started remembering his life back on Earth.
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I was just an average person back then with ambitions to bring about a change in the world. But most importantly, the thing that mattered to me the most was money.
I was from a family where we had enough money to have a roof on top of our heads and food to eat three times a day. But we didn't have enough to pay for anything else.
I still remember how I never got to go on school trips because my parents didn't have money. They used to reject me, saying it was for my own safety. Still, I don't blame them for anything. They had done the best they could.
I was from what people used to call a middle-class family. A lower middle-class family, to be precise. My parents saved everything they could for my brother's and my education.
My brother eventually became an engineer who earned decent money and became independent. It was only me who was left behind.
My parents did not shower me with excessive love or care as they were busy making money. I was not very attached to them as most of the time we conversed, the talks revolved around money.
Not even a single day passed by when they did not talk about money. It was very tiring and irritating.
I could not hang out with the few friends I had as my meager allowance prevented me from going to most of the places they frequented. I usually had nothing on me. So, I never treated them to food nor did I join when they went out for parties. It was sad that I had spent my teenage years thinking of ways to earn money.
I realized that the only way to get out of this place was to become good at academics.
I studied hard day and night and finally cracked the exam for an ivy league university. Thankfully, I scored pretty well and got a scholarship as well. My tuition fees were quite cheap, and I only had to manage my cost of living.
I took a loan and went to study abroad and got a part-time job there. While working and studying, time passed in the blink of an eye.
I think it was my second year's semester break and I was going home after two long years in a foreign country.
I didn't want to go home because I had no emotional attachments to it, but I still went because I missed the food back home and my culture.
I wanted to go out on the streets of my city and have some street food. I wanted to visit places in my City that I was never able to because I had no money.
I was studying in a first-world country and had saved up a good amount. I was going to use this money in my developing country. Everything was cheap in my city compared to the country I was studying in.
Anywho, I was happy to go back home as I would be able to eat anything I wanted back there. It would've been a pretty fun thing. I could point my finger at any place in my city, and I was sure that I could afford to eat anything on the menu until I was full.
I remember the first time I received my first paycheck. It made me feel good and independent. The happiness I felt then was unimaginable.
For the first time, I ate at a burger shop I couldn't afford before. I did not have to worry about money and find the cheapest option. I ordered something I wanted to taste and because it was cheap.
Even then, my total bill was around $20 or something. It was a lot of money, and I regretted splurging on it thoughtlessly.
In a developing country, that sum of money could've lasted me for a week. Yet, I ended up paying this sum for just one meal.
But it was alright in the end since I got over it.
Since then, I did not spend more than $3�C$5 on food, and I mostly avoided good quality takeouts because I had to save money.
I also never went on a vacation. I did not visit any tourist spots or places where I could have fun with friends.
I was lonely in that ivy league university and made no friends for the duration of two years. I didn't have time for chilling and relaxing as I had to juggle work, lectures, and studies.
I did talk to people where I worked and in the classroom where I sat, but I never made any close friends. I read novels and manga or watched anime to unwind and relax as they were cheaper alternatives to hanging out with friends.
Gradually, I saved up enough money and bought a plane ticket home. But who knew that the plane would crash and take my life?
Who knew I would reincarnate into a world of Swords and Magic?
I never expected to get a second chance like this. I also did not imagine that I would reincarnate as a son of the Vampire Queen!
In this life, I did not even need to work as I had everything from birth. I was happy to have everything and I was happy knowing I could eat anything I want and buy anything I wish. But at the end of the day, buying those things didn't bring me the same amount of pleasure as in my previous life.
It wasn't the same happiness as buying a $30 meal without thinking twice or getting a $10 iced coffee from a popular coffee chain at the airport before a flight.
I knew the reason for it. It was because I had not earned that sum of money. The money belonged to my mother. Although it could be considered mine, I could not feel the same happiness when I bought stuff with the money I had worked hard to earn.
Alright then, I think I'll change that.
Once I get out of this hole, I'll earn enough money and become rich enough to rival my mother's net worth. I'll become the richest man in the world!
I'll do business, I'll rob people, I'll slaughter people, I'll do anything I possibly can and earn money!
Is it a good thing to kill people for my own benefit? Absolutely not.
Is it moral? It isn't.
Will getting money in this way make me happy? Perhaps.
Will I be content? Perhaps not.
Would I be able to do the things that I never was able to in my first life? Absolutely.
I am gonna hurt a lot of people with my greed and ambition. Many people will be sad because of my wish to relieve my past life's regrets.
But do I care? No. Perhaps a little but mostly no.
At the end of the day, I am doing it for the sake of my own happiness. I want to re-live my last life's nineteen years and have no regrets.
I am happy and content with my current life. I have the most beautiful wives in the world and I also have the best mother and sister. I also have two good friends and I am not lonely anymore.
I do feel happy with being with my friends and family but I want more happiness. I not only want to redo everything from my past life, but I also want to give the best things possible to my wives, family, and friends.
I want to be a good son, brother, husband, master, and friend.
I'll give myself nineteen years' worth of time to undo the regrets and fulfill the wishes of my past life.
After that, I will give up on them and focus on my current life. I'll focus on spending time with my wives and giving them all the love and care they deserve.
For the coming nineteen years, my major focus would be on making money and becoming rich.
Money was the thing I wanted the most in my past life and I'll make sure to have more money than I can ever spend in this life.
I am supposed to go to the Elven Continent and help the beastkin, right? I'll go and make as much money as I can with them.
I'll start a business in this world as soon as I get out and become the world's most revered merchant!
The Vampire Prince shall walk the path of being the richest person!
When I am dying and on my deathbed, I don't want to have any kinds of regrets whatsoever. Though I highly doubt that I'll even face a life-threatening situation, I don't want to have any regrets.
For that, I'll satisfy my past life's ambitions, and then I'll focus fully on satisfying my goals in my current life.
I'll become the richest merchant in the world, and I'll be the strongest businessman. I'll slaughter anyone who gets in my way, and I'll kill innocents if needed but I'll achieve my goals and fulfill all my ambitions.
I, Lith Evure, swear to have zero regrets whatsoever!