Chapter 164: Demon Emperor’s Little Phoenix 16 (part 2 of 2)
The Heavenly Empress’ voice was also choked with emotions, and was only able to barely collect herself after quite some time: “Since your Nirvana, every year at your birthday, I constantly think about when you’ll be able to return. Without noticing, nearly a thousand years had surprisingly gone by already……”
Languages are oftentimes too inadequate, and the feeling of extreme heartache cannot be put into words. In the same way, the joy of reunion is also indescribable. The Little Phoenix wanted to show the Heavenly Empress a smile, but his eyes became teary first. Despite having a thousand of words to say, he only said this in the end: “……adoptive mother, all your hair have grayed.”
The Heavenly Empress’ eyes were also filled with tears, as she then showed a faint smile, “Since Tong Tong has already grown up, adoptive mother has also grown old. I still remember the time, when you had yet to hatch from your shell, because your biological mother was injured, you were born prematurely, and was somewhat weak. The eggshell was still translucent, that your peaceful sleeping appearance inside could be seen through the eggshell. Later, after the slow cultivation in the Heavenly Temple, you changed and grew every day. You began to roll around, moving here and there, you would even bump into the eggshell with energy sometimes……”
The Little Phoenix’s biological parents perished in the war between the Immortals and Devils ten thousand years ago. Before their death, the Phoenix egg was entrusted to the Heavenly Emperor, who has yet to succeed the throne, and the Heavenly Empress, who was still the crown prince’s wife. They brought back the egg to the Heavenly Temple, and patiently waited for thousands of years until the Little Phoenix broke out from his shell, and always treated him like their own child. The Heavenly Empress touched his hair again, and continued to say with a smile: “This bit of gray hair is of no importance. Now that you’ve already safely returned, it will go back to being black soon.”
The Little Phoenix have never regretted in having saved An Ying, nor did he feel that what he had done was wrong. He even felt that he would be the one to bear his own choices anyway, and even if he had done anything wrong, it also had nothing to do with other people. It was only at this moment, did he realize how selfish he was, and how completely inconsiderate he was to his relatives. Even if it was to save An Ying, it was still actually him, who is in that moment.
Between watching An Ying unfeelingly die and refining his heart into pill, he had chosen the option that made him feel better. Just like when he had been reborn as a young Phoenix not too long ago, when he injured his tail because of having been stuck in the Chinese Parasol tree, An Ying cast that pain removal spell on him to take the pain for himself and spoke.
— The man lightheartedly said to the still ignorant young Phoenix: “Physical pain is better than emotion pain, right?”
That’s right, physical pain will always heal, but emotional pain is forever. Continuing day after day, without any relief. The injured An Ying returned to the Demon Realm. He muddleheadedly sat inside Fu Ying Palace, with a strong alcoholic drink made in the Demon Realm at hand, drinking one cup after the other.
He skipped his meals, and only drank on an empty stomach. Drinking from the wee hours of the morning to the middle of the night in each passing day. The demon servant, Qian Xing, and his subordinates, who were guarding outside, wanted to dissuade him with anxiety, but they also didn’t dare to speak out rashly, and can only helplessly worry on.
After finding out about the rebirth method of the Phoenix during that time, An Ying first used up to half of his magic power to protect the Little Phoenix’s soul. Not feeling assured, he also split his soul into seven strands, and sent it to each life of the Little Phoenix’s reincarnation, to protect his well-being from one lifetime to another. Zhu Mo will never forget that day, when he saw An Ying point at the scene in the mirror reflecting world, where the Little Phoenix met one of the souls. The man frowned, with obvious concerns in his voice: “……they met much later in this life than the previous ones, will there be any changes in this world?”
Zhu Mo didn’t know how to answer this, and can only reassuringly say: “There shouldn’t be anything wrong, master doesn’t need to worry.”
Regardless of the consumption of the magic power or the body’s soul, An Ying’s main body needs to bear great pain. While enduring the pain, he can only helplessly look on, as his lover live together with that strand of soul, who also didn’t know anything about being separated from him. Watching from one lifetime to another, with each day dragging like a year.
Although those soul bodies would eventually return to the main body after each life, but those returning beautiful memories were also a kind of torture for him.
“But no matter how worried I am, I can only look over him like this,” An Ying tightened his grip on the mirror reflecting world, and said in a low tone of voice: “……but this is still just the fourth life, and the end of the torment seems to be out of sight. I’m not omnipotent, sometimes, I feel like I can’t hold on anymore.”
From Zhu Mo’s knowledge, their Demon Emperor was taciturn by nature. That day could be regarded as the first time An Ying had spoken the most words. Zhu Mo could hear the deep pain and loneliness from the tone of his voice.
Love can become the strength for people to persevere. But weariness and pain can only be swallowed and hidden by oneself.
An Ying put down the cup of wine, the Little Phoenix’s figure vaguely appeared before him once again, softly moving at the left in the room.
Every time he sees the Little Phoenix, An Ying can’t help but slightly quirk his lips. Because he will think of the happy times the two people had spent together, and the Little Phoenix’s kindness towards him. Thinking about the Little Phoenix sincerity and everything he had done for him, he knew that he once possessed the most precious treasure in the world. But this only resulted to even more sadness afterwards, because of knowing that he had already lost the other.
However, with just a single misstep, or even a single mistake made, it not only reached the point of no return, but everything also happened too abruptly without any warning.
Some cold liquid blurred An Ying’s vision, obstructing him from clearly seeing the face of the Little Phoenix walking in the room. He reached out his hand to wipe it away, but it increased the more he wanted to wipe it away.
After learning that the Little Phoenix had jumped down the Yu Yuan, when he sometimes wakes up at night, he will also feel something cold on his face, and wonder why there were liquids falling out from his eyes. The only thing he knows was that, his dreams, was full of that enchanting crimson, eye-catching, arrogant, bright and beautiful, all of which before him, was the Little Phoenix.
Maybe there wasn’t any reason at all, but just wanting to cry.
Remembrances becomes affliction, yearning turns into calamity.
After his sight cleared again, An Ying saw the Little Phoenix in front began to smile at him, and speak his name.
“An Ying, don’t drink too much. Drinking too much isn’t good for the stomach.”
“An Ying, eat some food, otherwise, the food will grow cold.”
“I want to drink too, this wine smells so good.”
“……”
An Ying looked at the Little Phoenix, and softly said: “Tong Tong is good, I’ll let you drink for one kiss, okay?”
Hearing his words, the Little Phoenix walked in front of him, and softly looked at him, then lowered his head.
But stopped when he was about to touch the corner of his mouth.
“No.”
The Little Phoenix’s gaze suddenly chilled inch by inch at this moment: “I don’t want you anymore. We will never see each other again, and will never meet each other in the future.”
A shudder suddenly passed An Ying’s body. The wine cup in his hand immediately rolled down the ground, and with a resounding crack, it shattered into pieces.