Chapter 86
Jiang Qi exhaled a mouthful of white gas while he stood on the roadside waiting for his pancakes . Recently, the weather is getting colder and Yang Shao Yu should be discharged soon .
Lin Zi Rui wore his white coat with a warm sweater inside, holding a medical record walking rapidly toward Yang Shao Yu’s ward . His other hand holds the breakfast he brought from home .
He pushed the door of the ward and saw Yang Shao Yu still asleep . His step unconsciously lightened as he scared to wake him up . He put the breakfast on the table and watch Yang Shao Yu's face . He couldn't help but smile and wanted to reach out and touch his face . But then he remembered his hand was freezing cold and he stops . He blows warm air to his hands and rubbed it together . After he slowly reached out, wanting to touch Yang Shao Yu's face . . .
At this time, Yang Shao Yu suddenly opens up his eyes taken Lin Zi Rui by surprise . He quickly retracted his hands and calmly pretending to pick up breakfast on the table . “Wake up? Come and eat your breakfast ba . ”
Yang Shao Yu put aside his quilt, and Lin Zi Rui took the crutches on the side and handed it to him . Yang Shao Yu walks with crutches to the washroom to wash .
Lin Zi Rui waited for him at the door of the washroom, and Yang Shao Yu had to speed up his actions .
As he walked slowly to the small dining table, Lin Zi Rui already spread out the breakfast for him on the table .
“You are more competent than the nurse . ” Yang Shao Yu smile as he stares at the delicious breakfast on the table .
Lin Zi Rui also smiles . "Come on and finish up your breakfast . I am going to my office . "
"Right, I should be able to leave the hospital in a few days right . "
Just about to open the door, Lin Zi Rui’s hand stops and replied after a while, "Yeah . " Then he opens the door and goes out .
Lin Zi Rui leaned his body against the wall outside the ward and covered his eyes with his arms while sighing . When did his heart start thinking about Yang Shao Yu?
It seems to be from the last time he learned Yang Shao Yu also likes men? No, perhaps it was earlier than that .
Lin Zi Rui walks on the corridor with his head down . His back looked a bit lonely as he walks away…
But why did he likes Yang Shao Yu? Lin Zi Rui’s steps suddenly stop as the question pops up in his mind . Slowly his head shakes in a mocking manner at his own thoughts .
Yang Shao Yu can already walk around, but he still needs to use crutches .
After walking around the hospital for a while, he went to Lin Zi Rui's office . He saw him looking seriously at something and knocked on the door . Lin Zi Rui looked up, and smile as he invited him in .
“What are you looking at?”
"It’s nothing . " Lin Zi Rui secretly covered Yang Shao Yu's medical record with a book .
"I can be discharged from the hospital at the end of the month . "
“En . ” Are you really anxious to leave the hospital? Lin Zi Rui was depressed by his eagerness .
"I am not working for three months, and I was a little bit nervous . " Yang Shao Yu sits down on a chair .
"It's still necessary to pay attention to rest . You should especially avoid running and don't do any intense movements . "
“Intense movements? So does that mean I cannot do those things?” Yang Shao Yu raised an eyebrow .
“What things?” Lin Zi Rui is slowly to understand what he meant .
"Of course that kind of thing that needs a woman . "
Lin Zi Rui’s heart was suddenly hit by a surprise and he felt a little painful, "Why . . . "
“What did you just said?” Yang Shao Yu didn’t hear what Lin Zi Rui said before .
"Can't you find a man?"
This time Yang Shao Yu heard his question clearly and replied with a smile, “What’s good about man? The body isn’t soft and had the same thing as mine . Completely destroyed my appetite . ”
Lin Zi Rui’s body turned rigid .
"But . . . " Yang Shao Yu continued, "If it is you, I might even consider it . " Yang Shao Yu doesn’t mean anything when he said this sentence since he simply regarded Lin Zi Rui as an ordinary friend . He simply put it as a normal joke between peers .
However, Lin Zi Rui was surprised and his mood suddenly elevated by this unconcerned joke .
"I’m going back to the ward first . I will go back to work in the company in a few days . There are still many things to do . " Yang Shao Yu stood up and left .
When Yang Shao Yu left, Lin Zi Rui put aside the book pressing on his medical record .
Caressing the record solemnly, Lin Zi Rui’s mind popped up a lot of possibilities . Maybe Yang Shao Yu can accept him? Maybe they can try it out? Maybe both of them can be together?
Thinking that maybe Yang Shao Yu would look for a woman after being discharged, Lin Zi Rui was flustered and his heart feels a bit painful .
In the few days before Yang Shao Yu’s discharge date, Lin Zi Rui never went to see him . He was afraid he can’t speak any words to him if they met .
Yang Shao Yu also was depressed in these few days when Lin Zi Rui disappear .
Tomorrow, Yang Shao Yu would be discharged from the hospital . Lin Zi Rui did not sleep all night thinking should he confess to him tomorrow .
If he did not confess, he can still be friends with Yang Shao Yu, but if he said it, maybe they can’t even stay as friends afterward .
But… . what if Yang Shao Yu also likes him?
Lin Zi Rui looked at the moonlight shining through the window, reminiscing the mode of getting along with Yang Shao Yu all these days . Occasionally swearing words can be heard on Yang Shao Yu’s mouth . It was really enjoyable to get along with him . Maybe, he can just give it a try .
Yang Shao Yu did not inform anyone he was going to leave the hospital today because he urgently needs to find a woman after leaving here .
After three months of abstinence, it is time for him to eat some meat .
However, it is unknown whether he can eat some meat or not today .
So, Yang Shao Yu went to find Lin Zi Rui for consultation .
"How is it?" Yang Shao Yu asked .
"Well, your recovery seems good . You can be discharged . " Lin Zi Rui almost did not sleep the night before and his whole being is a bit awkward with the whole black color under the eyes .
"Great, I am going to pack my clothes and leave the hospital right away . "
"Alright . " Lin Zi Rui looked at Yang Shao Yu who was impatient to go through the formalities and leave the hospital .
When Yang Shao Yu walked out of the hospital, he saw Lin Zi Rui outside waiting for him in his casual attire .
"Are you not working?"
"No, I got an afternoon off . " Lin Zi Rui walked side by side with Yang Shao Yu . "Let's go and have lunch together . "
“Alright . But I don’t have extra time afterwards . ”
“Okay . Just lunch would suffice . ”
The two came to a quiet restaurant and Lin Zi Rui picked up a private room to dine .
“What do you like to eat?” Yang Shao Yu looked at the menu and asked .
“Anything, I’m not picky . ” Lin Zi Rui was a bit absent-minded .
Yang Shao Yu ordered a few types of dishes and waited until the waiter went out before he questioned Lin Zi Rui . "What happened to you today?"
"Yang Shao Yu . . . "
"Ah?"
"I, I like you . "
" . . . " Yang Shao Yu who suspected that he heard it wrong . "What did you say?"
"I like you . " Lin Zi Rui feels like he was waiting to be sentenced, even his expression turned serious .
Yang Shao Yu suddenly felt a headache, "Zi Rui . . . "
Lin Zi Rui clenched his hands under the table and his palms were sweaty waiting for Yang Shao Yu’s answer .
"Sorry . " Yang Shao Yu frowned and decided to make it clear with Lin Zi Rui .
"I don't like you, I don't like men and I don't know how you would think like that . "
"But, if you don't try how do you know you won’t like me?" Lin Zi Rui felt his eyes were hot, and quickly lowered his head .
"I don't want to try . I like women . I don't hate homosexuality, but I can't imagine myself to be with a man . " Yang Shao Yu paused and said "I feel disgusted . " Yang Shao Yu felt that he should use hurtful words to break Lin Zi Rui’s idea once and for all .
"Am I making you feel disgusted as well?" Lin Zi Rui looked up and said .
" . . . . . . . " Yang Shao Yu looked at Lin Zi Rui's downcast face and reddish eyes . For a moment he almost couldn't bear it . But he still continued, "Yes, so let's take a break and do not see each other for a while . You should think clearly about it, lest we even friends cannot do . " Yang Shao Yu stood up and walked to the door . He stopped, but without turning around spoke his last verdict . "I don't like you . I don't like it right now and I won't like you in the future either . "
"But I like you . " Lin Zi Rui stood up from his seat and pulled Yang Shao Yu's hand, hoping that he would not go .
Yang Shao Yu yanked his hand out of Lin Zi Rui’s grasp . "I am leaving . "
When he finished, he immediately walked out .
Lin Zi Rui looked at the closed door . Even Yang Shao Yu’s back could no longer be seen . He finally unable to bear his tears and let it roll down his cheeks .
Originally he thought Yang Shao Yu also would like him . But, looks like it was all his own self-deception .