His Peasant Wife : Yao Ling Chapter 231 Lin Zhou: Han Xiang's Letters 2

'Xiao Fang ah~ you don't need to feel guilty because of me. Killing myself is my own choice... I know that I'm only your substitute, but I don't mind. Without you, I won't be able to live blissfully for so long. You make me laugh and feel a genuine friendship in this life... I apologize if I had changed lately. There was a voice who kept telling me to hate you and I didn't even know why...'
Xiao Fang started to understand Han Xiang's struggle and realize the reason why she started to change, but she wondered why she killed herself when she was in a clear mind. Why didn't she say anything about her struggle? She didn't understand... Why didn't she try to chase her own happiness just like the Ce Fei ah~?
'Do you understand why I didn't blame you? I heard he said that I was an orphan... if I live my real life, there was also no guarantee that I could live happily... However, somehow... the poison that he gave me... made me do a lot of things that I didn't intend to... It seemed to amplify the little negative feelings that I have... Weird? I know. But, this is the only explanation that I can think of...'
Xiao Fang's tears trickled down into the paper and made it wet... However, it didn't bother Xiao Fang and she merely wiped her eyes so she could see clearly once again, then she continued reading the letter...
'I chose to kill myself because I want my freedom back... That's why I told you that this really didn't have anything to do with you... Remember how I told you that my wish is to become a butterfly? Now... I can become a butterfly that I wished for... That's whyno need to blame yourself!"
How could Xiao Fang not cry when she read this part? She didn't even want to reincarnate as a human once more and choose to become a butterfly... It seemed like Heaven was listening to Han Xiang's prayers. A blue butterfly suddenly went inside the room through the window, flying softly in the air. It suddenly landed on Han Xiang's letter, seemingly wanted to chat with Xiao Fang.
This weird phenomenon made the others feel dumbfounded and they didn't dare to move or try to shoo the butterfly away. They didn't understand the meaning, but Xiao Fang understood perfectly clear.
Xiao Fang looked at the butterfly with a hopeful eyes and then touched it. The weird thing was... the butterfly didn't even try to fly away, it just obediently stayed there. It seemed like the butterfly was waiting for something.
Xiao Fang asked softly, "Han Xiang, is that you? Is your wish coming true?"
The others were surprised by Xiao Fang's words and they wanted to ask whether she was okay or not, after all, she was talking to a butterfly ah~! She even treated the butterfly as Han Xiang... General Hu wanted to say something but Lin Jian shook his head, and General Hu held himself back. They knew that she was in grievance and she probably needed time to adjust her mental state.
Only Xiao Fang heard a soft whispering voice that sounded like Han Xiang's voice, "This is me... I am happy now... so, be happy too..." It was so soft that Xiao Fang thought it was merely a part of imagination. However, after that, the blue butterfly flied toward her and stopped at her cheek. It looked like the butterfly was kissing her. After doing that, the butterfly flied away...
A simple gesture... but it meant a lot to Xiao Fang.
Even the others were astonished by the butterfly's unusual behavior and it made them start to believe that the butterfly was indeed Han Xiang. They were surprised once more when they noticed that Xiao Fang didn't look as sad as before, her red swollen eyes turned into the shape of crescent moon --- it seemed like she was smiling behind her veil. It made the others feel slightly relieved.
'Han Xiang... I hope that the butterfly is really you...' Xiao Fang thought to herself. After the butterfly's appearance, she became calmer and felt less guilty. No matter what, she would think of the butterfly as Han Xiang.
After the interlude, she continued reading the letter.
'I want to tell you about everything... about what happened to me and about a sinister plan from someone high above... This is the truth and I hope you will believe me... Use this information to save your family... I wish you all the best and happiness in life... After reading the rest of this letter, don't forget to read and use my blood letter for your family survival...'
Han Xiang gave a description about what she went through in details and she didn't even cover up the gory part. She had been wanting to kill herself a few times when she wasn't under the drug's influence, but the maidservants that served her was actually used to control her and prevent her from doing anything silly in the Han Emperor's eyes --- including killing herself when she was still useful. She was beyond happy when they were killed by the bandits.
Yao Ling never thought that they were actually helping Han Xiang by orchestrating the robbery.
Everything that happened was in line with what she said when she was under Yao Ling's truth powder. There were more disgusting things that had happened, but Xiao Fang coudln't bear to read it out loud. She was only a young girl and she had gone through a lot because of a crazy Monarch. They couldn't help but pity the woman.
What Xiao Fang just read really made her feel chilled to the bone. She had to let her father wake up and see what kind of Monarch that he had served loyally! She believed that he must have done a lot of things worse than this. There was no honest or even kind Emperor --- for one man to be able to rule the world, he must have a lot of tricks on his sleeves, but it didn't mean that he was allowed to do these kind of immoral things!
Xiao Fang let the others read Han Xiang's letter, she even let General Hu to read along with them. Because she knew that in order to find justice for Han Xiang, she needed General Hu's help too. They had the same reactions as Xiao Fang --- they felt chilled to the bones and in disbelief at how the Han Emperor was actually such a bastard in private. All of them already had a guess about this, except for General Hu. He couldn't believe that he stumbled upon the dirty secret of the royal and he couldn't believe what the princess had gone through!
The room went into silence and when Xiao Fang saw that they were in the middle of thinking things over, she quickly seized the chance to kowtow in front of them.
All of them stood up in surprise and asked at the same time, "Xiao Fang, why are you kneeling?!" Yao Ling tried to help her up, but she was so strong and didn't even budge an inch.
"Please... please help me to find justice for Han Xiang!" She kowtowed until her forehead bleed and she didn't even care about her own dignity. Even if she had to lower herself, she would do it willingly. She knew that without their help, she couldn't do it all alone.
The trio helplessly looked at each other, but... they didn't know how to respond. Yao Ying decided to answer Xiao Fang, "Can you give us a bit more times to talk about this? We have another obligation in our families and we need to seek permission from them."
Xiao Fang's eyes lit up. At least, they weren't rejecting her directly and she still had more time to convince them. Then, she looked at General Hu with pleading eyes, "What about you General Hu?"